The struggle and the produce

The struggle and the produce

Though my peers and clients classify me as a positive person I am not quiet sure I am as happy as I could be. I find myself frustrated at the general pace of my life and career. If things don’t go the way I want it to, I can have a mini-fit. I do stress when I double book meetings, or forget something at home. I can be pushed over the edge quicker than I would hope. At the same time though, I have a balance act going on. I do have great days. When I give a lecture at a school about what I do, or when I land a client or when I get a good piece of press about my latest work, I have a field day. I sing when I drive, I smile all day long, I laugh at the lamest joke.

Which made me question myself, am I positive but not happy?

I have happy days, does that make me happy? Am I happy whether I have a bad a day or a good day? Is it all relevant to the day that I am actually having? Do I have happiness inside of me, or does it come and go?

For my birthday one of the ladies at my arsenal team gave me a book called the happiness project by xx . It talked about how a mother who was a writer was asking the same questions. She was doing what she loves and had a family but not sure if she was happy.

I started to ask some of my friends and mother about happiness and what it meant to them. Who are the happiest people you know? What do you think makes them so happy?

And more importantly the subject came to wanting more. If you are a designer or an artist or an entrepreneur then you are in the act of producing. Everyday. To be happy is to feel satisfied with what you have at the moment to me. Am I happy with what I have, and if I have it will it stop me from moving forward. Do we have to struggle to produce?

If you are a producer can you ever be satisfied? And if you are, and you are happy. Will that affect tyoru production.

Many artists come to mind. Working into the dark hours of the night, expressing their emotions, painting struggles and fights and heartaches on to canvas. Are they happy?

I have come to define happiness as : being satisfied with what I have, being grateful and content, but still allowing room for growth and progress.

I have also figured out I need to do more of the things that I love and doing less of what I don’t.

What I love:

1. Football
2. Eating dark chocolate
3. Public speaking
4. Travelling
5. Writing this column

What I don’t love doing but do anyways

1. Complaining
2. Going on a guilt trip
3. Not being so hard on myself when I fail
4. Having a routine
5. Accounting

Not sure I added some value in this article, this is a general q and a one. Can we be happy and produce? Or are we to remain unsatisfied forever, wanting more seeking more and unhappy with this moment we are in?